I’ve been on three years’ worth of APAC Dramas at this point. Every one’s a little different and I always feel emotional after they’re over.

But right now I feel really emotional because it was my last one ever. In 14 days, I won’t be a kid anymore. I’ll be a fully legal adult. Holden Caulfield won’t speak like me, he’ll be my delegate.

In 2010, for the first APAC I ever went on, I had to buy a Japanese robe (yukata) and I’ve gotten weekly emails from the store since then. But I’ll never unsubscribe from the emails, just because they’re a small business. I almost think of them as my friends, and I like to see how they’re doing. I don’t know. It’s just the Holden in me.